Fighting for my life 

Enough is simply enough

I walk through depression periodically – an average of about four per year. By this point it’s like: surely you have a strategy by now?”
The answer is no, however, I’ve become so much better at handling it.

I know there are basic principles I should begin to implement if I want to see myself live more abundantly. A key part of that is praying hope, courage, peace, and strength into existence.

I think gone are the days whereby I can lie under the oppressive weight of depression, hoping for it to mercifully release me – and here come the days wherein I will fight for my freedom.

I’m not (now) fighting because it’s become any easier and “finally I’m able to hack it”; no. I am fighting because I have lost numerous battles and watched my life become drained of colour; enough is simply enough.

So I prayed.

Today I was vulnerable with God and exposed all my fears to Him. I talked about everything (that I could think of at the time) that I was afraid of. Thoughts about how it was too late for me to make something of my life; too late for me to see prophecies over my life come to pass; too late for me to finish my degree. I exposed all of it!

Psalm 62:8 then popped into my head, so I went to check it out:

“O my people, trust in Him at all times. Pour out your heart to Him, for God is our refuge.”

I knew immediately that this was the Holy Spirit encouraging me to carry on and make this a daily habit (“at all times”).

Later, while I was in the kitchen I also began making declarations. I spoke strength, courage, motivation, and hope over myself.

I am assembling for battle… And my training has only just begun. 🔥💙

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