Late night/early morning thoughts:
In May 2016 I gave a talk at an event which went incredibly awful; I walked away that evening feeling like the biggest lemon. I concluded that preaching the gospel (in that public context) couldn’t possibly be what God called me to do, and I never wanted to speak again.
It took me 1 year 5 months to give another talk.
In that time, I grew. I think God began to teach me more about His grace; about how He is the one speaking through me; and that I need only to obey and say “yeah sure!” …He’s the one who pulls everything together, not me.
There is so much freedom when we allow God to take control and carry our burdens.
Today I am grateful for that day! 💙